I mentioned my application for protective segregation was denied. I was released back into the general population and I am only 1 wing away from where I left. I find solace in the fact that I did what was right thereby I did everything in my power to not be in situations where my life and the lives of my attackers would be in danger. I am totally sick of hurting people but I know I can defend myself in clear conscience. I believe I mentioned to you how when you make certain mistakes in here you can be sent on missions to "clean it up." They send you to attack people they want hurt and your situation is rectified and you can live in peace. I will continue to stand for Christ and I refuse to do evil so that good will result. After all "Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven". Matt. 5:10 NRSV I believe God is allowing me the honor of suffering for Him and his teaching me and refining me. Whether sooner or later I will be attacked. My paperwork is bad and I checked in to P.C. [Protective Custody] There is just no way around that. I will continue to do whats right and leave the rest in God's hands.
I am hopeful I can ask a favor of you. I feel bad because you have done so much to help me but here we go. My family (mostly Mom) knows I am in trouble in here but I try not to let them know the extent of it because I don't want them stressed out and worried about me. I have put them through so much and it saddens me that when I start being attacked they will go through more pain but I wan't clean it up to save myself. I can't and won't. If they end up killing me before there is enough evidence to get into P.C. can you please tell my family I love them and let them know I could have cleaned it up by hurting people but that I stood for Christ regardless of the cost? I want my family to know that I finally lived as the person they raised me to be. That in the end I did what was right […]
In Christ Jesus,
Jeremy Maximilian
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